Yesterday, 10/25/24, I was sent by Higher Mind to Walmart to pick up a pumpkin spice candle. Lady Gaga just released her newest single "Disease" and the drive through the colored-fall-trees along with Gaga reminded me of Fall 2009 which was the activating point for my skills to pierce into my conscious mind deeper.
I picked up the pumpkin spice candle then shuffled over to the craft area. Sitting near the Crayola supplies was a journal. So! I picked up the journal and purchased it with the quintessential fall candle.
My process of Birthing a new Journal into my life involves tearing out, ripping off the remaining pages within the Journal I was using. This is a Death/Rebirth Process. The torn pages are then stocked in my craft drawer to use as scrap paper during readings.
The wicks were lit and I stapled the receipt into the first page of the Birthing Journal.
I admit that Summer 2024 did not involve much writing in my journal. I was navigating a groin/lower abdominal injury which clouded my thoughts and I wasn't inspired to write down those thoughts since they were mostly disgruntled and infuriating. I did...however...staple receipts from important adventures throughout the Summer and early Fall so there are those memory stamps housed in the journal.
I sat with my newly birthed journal and I let my hands shuffle my tarot deck. A Practice I usually do to initiate the new energies which are symbolized by the new journal housed in my field.
I think we all know what it feels like when we hear a new song that pushes all of our buttons. We stamp that new song into our Mind/Body/Spirit Complex and it feels like we are at the starting point of some new Era. I'm a fan of Lady Gaga's darker-synth-pop songs so Disease is a real Halloween Treat for me!
I created my own tarot spread - a variation of the 'standard' 5 Card Spread - and I let the cards birth impressions within my Mind Tool. I may not use cards in my Practice reading for clients, but I do use tarot in my personal intuitings/reflections.
I let the impressions form like a smoke formation which then dissapate. I reflected on Summer and Early Fall 2024. I reflected on how great therapy has been for me as an effective tool to learn more about myself and to purge sickening perceptions that I had of myself.
I wrote about how I realize that I find FULFILLMENT in my Practice. If my Practice ever becomes a Full-Time affair...then great! But...I'm not sure if I want my Practice to be something Full-Time. My younger self definitley did, but that was before the years I experienced doing the work. If my Practice never becomes a Full-Time income stream then I'll be perfectly okay. Because! I get LIFE FORCE from my Practice which will reinvigorate my being as I have to counter the draining aspects of a "standard full-time job".
I reflected on the series of readings in the last few months after taking July 2024 off from doing readings...which wasn't necessarily so because I did manage to push up some readings because I genuinley missed doing them. I do love my work! My practice! My craft!
So if you find yourself reading this entry...do you journal?
I'm not one who feels like I need to be rigid and severely structured in a routine of journaling. I do it when I'm inspired. I prefer to journal during my days off from work and definitely after I finished reading anyone.
I allow myself the time to just...Reflect...Intuit....and See.
I always recommend using Tarot in one's personal life. It is nothing like reading people in a professional setting since one cannot receive any information that could resemble being a Radio for another person. I also...my Bias...I hate oracle cards.
I love Tarot. The Illustration of the Entire Human Journey/Experience.
Give it to me straight - don't sugar coat it. This new journal also mirrored elements from the latest episode of 'Agatha All Along'. I won't spoil episode 7, but this episode was of the SEER.
TO SEE.
I suggest you don't make journaling a chore. Play some of your favorite music. Be in a comfortable space. Don't rush. Just Reflect. Write. Doodle. Do what you feel since this practice ultimately is a tool to strengthen your Intuitive Muscle.